Letters to Jesus10:53 AM
"O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; You Perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD. You hem me in--behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me." Psalm 139:1-5
This, my friends, is The God we serve. You better believe that He has taken all of the details into account and is ready and willing to offer you rest from your worries, joy amongst your suffering, and refuge from your fears.
- "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls" Matt 11:29
- "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
-"Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us" Romans 5:3-5
Why then is it so hard for us at times to believe that God is actively alive in our hearts and working in our lives? I believe the answer is very simple. We are too busy to notice. We max out our days, fill up our weeks, and are consumed and controlled by our "schedules." We are so distracted that we miss out on the every day blessings and disciplines being poured into our lives. I recently went through a time in my life where circumstances left me feeling somewhat disconnected from The Father, and questioning His involvement in my life. Quite possibly I even held a pity party for myself, doubting that I was worthy enough for such a love. In a desperate need for His comfort I began writing my prayers in letters to my Father. I spent the first several days writing to Him in code language out of fear that someone might find my journal. I wanted so desperately to talk so plainly to The Savior and over a process of several days I was released from that fear and began to pour out my soul in letters to Jesus. It has been nearly three months since I started my prayer journal. In this short time I have never in my life been more aware of God's infinite love and involvement in my life. He has shown me things about who I am and revealed wisdom to me that I think I would have easily overlooked had I not been able to go back and see the journey in writing. He has answered prayers specifically and he has disciplined me in ways and showed me the error in my thinking, opening my eyes to truths that have freed me from believing a lie. He has shown me what I actually need as oppose to what I think I need. He has seen the worst in me and loved me in return, gently restoring me through the Holy Spirit. He is the best pen pal I have ever had and although this has not been a journey free of pain, sanctification is never without pain, it is a journey that I want to travel the rest of my days. I would like to throw out a challenge to anyone who happens to come across this post. Commit to 30 days of letters to Jesus. Heartfelt, pouring out of your soul, letters to Jesus, no code language. Worst case, someone finds your journal, reads it, and realizes you are broken. They will then have the privilege of watching God restore you and sanctify you as you draw closer to Him.
P.S. Keep me posted those of you who choose to accept!!